God or You? 🙇

You ever heard ‘like a thief in the night’? That’s how exams fell upon me. It was like a bad joke. I had not read shingbai. I was using my strike to plan for Emeka. As soon as I and Amaka got back to school, we started doing all night reading for the exams that we were told would hold in two weeks time.

A day to the exams, rumour had it that timetable had been changed😭😭 and my toughest course was now my first. I felt life was over for me. People were panicking and everyone was just jumping up and down. School life honestly i think is one of the easiest way to die. No kidding. But, thankfully that rumour was not true so we jejely continued our jacking.

On the day of our first paper, I and Amaka got ready and left by 7:30am for a 9am paper so we would write on time and go and read for the other paper. It was paper and pencil based exam theory to be specific. Now it was against our policy to cheat during exams. When Amaka led me to Christ, she changed a lot. But the fact that we didn’t play does not mean we don’t know the players.

As we were entering the exam hall after an hour of standing on a suffocating queue we started hearing rumours of what would come out. Quickly, some of our friends dashed out of the line to get chips. But, you know that moment when you just pray the rumours are false because you have not touched that aspect of your note, that’s how i felt at that point. “it’s a lie jooor” Amaka said “shebi that’s how they said timetable has been changed “she continued. “You are correct o” that’s me oo ginger and confidence began to enter. “Fake rumours everywhere ” I complained bitterly.

Dear readers if you think shock is when your hands are wet and you come in contact with electricity, you are so wrong. Shock is the spirit that came upon me when I saw my exam paper. Four theory questions answer all….all of them as rumoured from the topic I did not read. I started laughing because laughter Was The only thing that could stop me from going berserk at that point😭😭. My coursemates were now calling me scholar to aggravate the whole situation 🤧🤧

In my humility, I quickly looked around for the guys that brought in chips but Amaka knew what I was up to and made it a point of duty to make it impossible for me to reach them. Eventually I got tired of trying, wrote the little I knew, submitted and walked out. When she came out, I was so mad at her. “I have failed this paper and it is all because of you!” I yelled “what did you think you were do always forming holier than thou! You… ” I ranted on and she just looked at me.

When I was done she gave me the shortest most reasonable answer and I was immediately sobered. “NgoziChukwuka Anozie” she said, “everyone in life fails at a point in time, so it doesn’t really matter. What matters is who you failed yourself or God” she completed and walked out. Then, she came back and said “when you fail yourself, you can recover anytime, but when you fail God, well you know better” then she walked away finally. My face changed and all my anger melted.

Maybe I would fail the course… Maybe I won’t, what does it matter? I actually didn’t read enough… I masterminded my misfortune. But what if I had cheated and I was who a younger Christian was looking up to to hold firm, what if there trumpet had sounded OK that’s even too far. What if I was caught and penalized? How would I live with it? How would my parents feel? And the people I mentor? And the ones I envagelized to? What if the expos were even wrong?. There are so many what ifs! and at the end the good grades would not have really mattered if I had failed God.

So I leave you with this who would you rather fail? You or God?

I looooooove yooooooooooou thanks for taking out time to read! It means a lot. I pray God bless you real good and guide you and give you Grace not to fail HIM. Enjoy your weekend and please lemme know what you think.

XoXo